I need you
I want you
I want to see you each day
I want to be in your arms each day
In my spot each day
But I feel like saying this and asking this is too much
I want you to want these things, without me asking
I want you to want to be with me like I want to be with you
So I’ll stop asking when
I will say I miss you because I do
But I’ll stop prompting conversations and interactions
I want you to be with me, but I can’t make you and I don’t want to hound you and keep asking
So I’ll pull back to protect myself
Even though it hurts because this isn’t me
I want to tell you how I feel
But I’m afraid to because I like you more than I think you like me
So I’ll step back
Not because I don’t care
But because I care too much
And I don’t know that you feel the same
I don’t know that you don’t
I just don’t know
But know that I have always meant what I have said to you
Always
You saved me and gave me strength
You made me feel safe and secure
But I don’t know how to ask you what you want- what’s too much, what’s too little
I don’t know how to do this with you
I don’t know how to tell you what I want to tell you without being rejected
I don’t know what you want
And not knowing scares me
Pulling back scares me
Not saying my feelings scares me
I just want to tell you everything but I don’t know how